Summary of My Guided Journey from the perspective of the interviewer, Ray Holley.
Hi, I’m Ray Holley and today I’m going to tell what I’ve learned from interviewing Linda on her book, My Guided Journey – the companion Journal to her award-winning book, Guided.
When I first started doing these interviews with Linda Deir, together with the help of her Spirit Guides, she wrote all the scripts without any input from me. And, that was good since you can’t speak intelligently about something you haven’t, or don’t remember experiencing.
As we talked through chapters 1-18, week by week, it drew me into remembering certain parts of my childhood.
As I interviewed Linda Deir each week, I found myself pondering many things…
1. Wondering about what I could remember.
2. Wondering about what I couldn’t remember.
3. Getting mad about some of the things I did remember.
In the early chapters of taking this journey, what it drew out of me was me remembering certain painful parts of my life that I had forgotten…
or maybe wanted to forget… and how I handled them at the time. That became my time capsule that Linda unraveled with each passing week using her Guided Journal Writing System.
Here was the conflict … I was raised in a very strict Catholic environment. Linda talked about having come into this world, as a “new person” capable of anything. But I was taught that as a “sinner,” I, was an inherently bad person who had to “redeem” myself. As a child, I remembered thinking … “You mean I’m not a good person?” When did that happen? What did I do and why do I have to pray for forgiveness all the time? What did I do wrong?
I had a rebellious reaction to this inner conflict, then and now.
I was mad at all of them who tried to force their beliefs onto me because what they taught me to believe was totally wrong.
These interviews with Linda proved that I didn’t come in as…
- A bad person, a damaged person. That’s only possible after you get here.
- A guilty person who had to beg for forgiveness for something I was told I did and to never question it or I would go to hell. Hell is a by-product of your inner conflict.
I realized that the beliefs we have, come from what our parents, schools, and society taught us, and it was done to control us by making us doubt ourselves.
When you take this new awareness that shows up in your writings, by observing what happened in your childhood, these memories become the building blocks to restore your life. I stopped reacting emotionally and began to feel the truth of a situation…making the distinction that emotions are beliefs that keep you stuck in a sort of time capsule, and not the truth.
What I realized is that I wasn’t an angry, defensive, rebellious, defiant, or bad child. I was a frustrated and ill-equipped child who was taught the wrong things by the people and institutions I was supposed to blindly trust. That what I would be writing into my Journal now was from a perspective of “what it was” and not “what I was told it was.” Only then, could I see what was really going on and stop taking it personally.
That’s what is meant when people say, “you must face your fears” or “look your fears right in the eye.”
While this is Linda’s life, I too am just beginning this inner journey of remembering and then making the shifts to accessing my “hidden knowledge” that, until now, has been lying dormant inside me for most of my life.
Although I felt those dreaded twinges of fear in chapter 1, I couldn’t start there. I was too emotionally charged to write about what happened in that early part of my life until I got to chapter 14 where I became intrigued, and the writing came easily.
After writing out what happened in my life in chapter 14, I was on a roll, making chapters 15-18 easy for me to write. Now, when I went back to the chapters I hadn’t yet started, chapters 1-13, I went back to the first time fear caught me off-guard.
Looking back, I realized I was set up to be an easy target. I recalled the one incident that happened at three years old and how my reaction to it has influenced me ever since. Until I wrote in this journal what that was and how it made me feel was I able to identify the obvious energy block that controlled me.
Growing up with a strict Catholic upbringing, my way of “asking” at that time was praying. When I prayed like I was told to do, whatever I prayed for never showed up. What I realized is that I didn’t believe in that process. After realizing this at that time in my life, everything related to religion was a ceremony of just going through the motions. I rejected it because it was always forced on me excluding my free will.
I’ve only talked about chapter 1, FEAR, but once I could identify that first fear and wrote it out I see how fear has been affecting my life. I could easily see how it influenced many decisions and repeating decisions that did not serve me. Even though I recognized this throughout my life I couldn’t seem to stop it.
These interviews with Linda made me realize how this happened. Before this Guided Journal Writing System was available, I was always cautious, wondering who could I ask, who could I trust? When I found myself talking to myself more, who was I really talking to? I came to realize that this was my natural way of asking, and my answers showed up every time. I was having a conversation with my Guides! I understand this now because it’s the way I used to do it when I first arrived as a new person before the people in this world told me how things are supposed to be. Thanks to Linda, helping me resolve my inner conflicts. ~ Ray Holley
This is the meditation video created specifically for My Guided Journey … Guided Meditation – Sitting with your Guides, by Linda Deir